Or is it you?
That would be a strange statement if had ever said any such thing. I said magical blood----which it would be if it did nothing when it was shed but only became something when someone activated faith. Meaning, our faith gives it its power to save. Perhaps your view stems from over literalization? By not recognizing that when it says his shed blood for atonement of the sins of many, it refers to his death?
Yes. It is how he purchased me. I was purchased before the foundation of the world. I always belonged to God. There was no question from his view that he would lead me to Christ.
I did not exercise faith in Christ. God gave me to Christ. God the Holy Spirit did this in me and for me by regeneration. With it came believing (faith) in the person and work of Christ. One cannot believe what they do not or cannot hear. That is when God placed me in Christ. Christ had already done the work of shedding his blood on the cross. He had already paid my debt. He did not have to shed his blood again, and me and my faith are not what gave it that power to save me.
I was a wandering sheep, dead in my trespasses and sin, who needed to be brought into the fold, but I was always one of his sheep. I was never a goat who was transformed into a sheep by faith. At just the right time, God opened my ears to hear the voice of the Shepherd and I recognized his voice and followed him. He knew me, long before I knew him. (John 10) He had already done the work necessary by shedding his blood, and rising again from the dead, and ascending back to the Father. Don't make the mistake of arriving at off the mark doctrinal beliefs by putting God and his work for salvation within our time constraints by saying things like faith is what gives saving power to the blood. (Paraphrase.)
If it didn't save me when I was lost, how could it save me when I am found?
Do you not see how that statement puts the death of Jesus of no value until a person gives it power by believing? It is actually what Christian Science teaches, though they go even farther off base than you in saying he could not and did not save anyone. What they say, and this is a quote from one of the writings of the founder of CS, "There was no more power in the blood of Jesus to save, when he shed it on the cross than when it ran through his veins." So be careful. Don't try to talk about two things at once by conflating them as one thing. (The blood, (Christ's death) and faith.) And that is what you do when you claim that blood is just blood until faith comes along and gives it saving power.
If Christ only died for the elect, (Calvinism) why do you continue to claim that he died for all?