I Love reading your posts..they are so up building and full of Love / Praise for the Lord....thank you for sharing.
I apologize for the reply God has been very busy with me It started with him hinting something to me a vague feeling of something like I was going to be blessed finiancially and given a well stable life after all these horrible years of life beating me up and my health always on the rocks
My first instaninct was to think about the propserity gospel you know those horrible abominations. But then I thought of something, doesn't the scriptures actually speak about him giving us all these things?
But then look at this horrible abaomination something didn't make sense.. But then vague feeling came back again of him blessing me and knowing me he knows that everything he blesses me me with I want to give to everyone else.
That is alo what I am doing here it wasn't even my intention to go on this crusade kind of thing I suppose I have just been on this journey wiith him and I have been growing because I have what is called a kingdom minded thing. I was dead serious when I gave my life to him I wasn't messing around when I said to him I love you I even went so far as to not just give my life to him but I made an oath on that day
I said to him I will go with you all the way no matter the trial the struggle the tests that may come if we are going to do this together I want the real thing. I even went so far and this sounds crazy but I said to him I will do all of this and make a covanent with you if I can have only one thing in return.
As insane as it sounds I said to him I want to know and have you and have a love and bond with you unlike anything anyone has ever had with you even anyone in all of scripture or even heaven itself at the end of all of this.
More than anyone else You are mine first I get first dibs. What happened on that day didn't just change me my friend I got a taste of the real thing he came right to me as I was laying in my bed in the dark talking with him making thia promise with him a covanent of the hearts I called it. And a small tiny drop just a single sprinkle of his love fell on me and my strength suddenly was gone but I was in his arms I was home.
His love was so warm so heavenly and soft so gentle and caring deeply moving and tender The beauty of his love is something that amazes you, how could such a love even exist? And for me? so much? so deeply? why? who am i to be loved like that? Oh but then there is of course how it is with you. It is as af you have known him somehow your heart somehow in that moment becomes an endearing child of how you want to snuggle him and bury your face in his arms even your body itself craves to embrace him badly you would give anything just to tackle him and hug him so strongly.
Believe me you will never want anything so badly in your life it is torture trust me LOL But then the father came and his love.... wow we are talking about some deep heavy stuff here my friend his love is not even in words I can't describe it for the life of me.
It is deep and thick so much so that the single sprinke I recieved was to much for my body to contain we weren't built to be able to contain this it isn't just abuntant it is deep waters my friend you get lost in it.
I mean what I say is not things I am just saying because I am some spiritual guru or fanatic. I mean like I said I was dead serious about this it wasn't just about faith or salvation for me I wanted to know the kingdom I wanted to know the real thing I wanted the truth and I found it.
He said it so simply guys he is the the way the truth and the life what was he talking about there really?
Is the truth just the gospel or is there more? what is this mystery of God that is spoken of? Isn't he the ultimate goal and reason for all of us? yesd we work for the kingdom we serve him and grow and learn we are supposed to be spreading the kingdom but at the end of the day don't forget this is all about him and this is all about us as well
We love him for a reason; I even had something happen in the shpower a bit ago that was amazing I learned so much but I already have ranted way to long I am so sorry everyone.