I say the exact same thing.
Yes, you say it. But you also say that it is a result of, among what things God does, something that you must do. Thus, not entirely of grace.
did the tax collector please God when he got on his knees
you are different than other reformed believers I have spoken to then.
who all say it all happens in a second
I can only go by what I have been told. if you believe different, share to me what you believe..
I don't actually identify as Reformed. Calvinist, either. But most of what they believe, I believe, but I think of some things differently. I consider myself logic-bound to the implications of God's omnipotence. For example, I can't present a complete
ordo salutis, as so many things, to me, are intricately bound to the rest as to be, even logically, simultaneous. Causally, I agree with the fact of the utter necessity of regeneration before anyone can do anything truly good. Also causally, I see beautiful reality in the fact that the Spirit of God is the absolute source of all good from within myself. Thus, repentance, love for Christ and desire for his fellowship, submission and obedience —not only generally, as in 'Sanctification'— but in every particular, is a direct result of the work of the Spirit of God —not only in motivation and ability to do these things, but in the very doing of them. "Not I, but Christ in me."
I believe in God's utter causation and meticulous control of every fact, substance, principle and all reality, from "the whole business" to the most miniscule and seemingly unimportant or irrelevant. I consider it possible, for example, that if science could ever find the smallest particle or substance of matter and force, that it would be something "of" him that all matter and force are built of—perhaps something very physical, such as "Love"— and not that the universe is him, nor that he is at all comprised of the universe, (because, after all, mathematically, what is taken from infinity does not reduce infinity).
(This has huge implications to such biblical themes as "restoring all things" to himself, and to the philosophical/theological attributes of God, and to ideas such as how God can "love the whole world" and be intimately involved with everything, yet plan from the beginning to do away with some of it. It even has implications to scientific principles, such as the Conservation of Energy.)