Rock Bottom

[Regulus]

Some of what I am going to write may not sit well with some of you, but please understand that I'm not here to cause offense.

I’m going through the roughest time of my life. My wife and I are divorcing. I’m planning on moving out of my state when the whole legal process is over, and I’m basically going to be starting over.

I had been absent from my local church for a while because I couldn’t mentally or emotionally commit to attending on a regular basis while everything was going on. This Sunday, I decided to go alone without her, and it was an emotionally draining experience. The only thing I felt during the service was a sense of judgement because I failed to hold my marriage together and the vow I made before God is now broken. I felt devastated looking at the empty seat next to me. Unfortunately, I don't plan on going back. On top of that, I don't pray much anymore, and I am unable to focus when I try to read the Bible.

Recently, I started giving serious thought to whether or not I wanted to continue being a believer. The answer I came to is yes—I will continue to believe; however, it will most likely be what James calls a “dead faith" since I no longer have the strength to serve or have fellowship with others.

I don't know what all of this means for my eternal destiny, but I guess I'll find out one day.

 

[Tambora]

Some of what I am going to write may not sit well with some of you, but please understand that I'm not here to cause offense.

I’m going through the roughest time of my life. My wife and I are divorcing. I’m planning on moving out of my state when the whole legal process is over, and I’m basically going to be starting over.

I had been absent from my local church for a while because I couldn’t mentally or emotionally commit to attending on a regular basis while everything was going on. This Sunday, I decided to go alone without her, and it was an emotionally draining experience. The only thing I felt during the service was a sense of judgement because I failed to hold my marriage together and the vow I made before God is now broken. I felt devastated looking at the empty seat next to me. Unfortunately, I don't plan on going back. On top of that, I don't pray much anymore, and I am unable to focus when I try to read the Bible.

Recently, I started giving serious thought to whether or not I wanted to continue being a believer. The answer I came to is yes—I will continue to believe; however, it will most likely be what James calls a “dead faith" since I no longer have the strength to serve or have fellowship with others.

I don't know what all of this means for my eternal destiny, but I guess I'll find out one day.

Hi Regulus,

I won't burden you by asking details of your marriage.
I will simply tell you that even some great faithful men of scripture sometimes had doubts as to whether God was guiding their life or not.
King David is a great example who had thought at times that God had abandoned him when a situation seemed hopeless in his eyes.
So don't think that having doubts about God is not a common occurrence even amongst the faithful when things go haywire in your life.
Struggles in life don't mean your eternal destiny is doomed.

 

[Carbon]

Some of what I am going to write may not sit well with some of you, but please understand that I'm not here to cause offense.

I’m going through the roughest time of my life. My wife and I are divorcing. I’m planning on moving out of my state when the whole legal process is over, and I’m basically going to be starting over.

I had been absent from my local church for a while because I couldn’t mentally or emotionally commit to attending on a regular basis while everything was going on. This Sunday, I decided to go alone without her, and it was an emotionally draining experience. The only thing I felt during the service was a sense of judgement because I failed to hold my marriage together and the vow I made before God is now broken. I felt devastated looking at the empty seat next to me. Unfortunately, I don't plan on going back. On top of that, I don't pray much anymore, and I am unable to focus when I try to read the Bible.

Recently, I started giving serious thought to whether or not I wanted to continue being a believer. The answer I came to is yes—I will continue to believe; however, it will most likely be what James calls a “dead faith" since I no longer have the strength to serve or have fellowship with others.

I don't know what all of this means for my eternal destiny, but I guess I'll find out one day.

Well sometimes we have to go through some very serious situations, this sure seems like one.
But as far as believing or not in concerned, if your a genuine child of God, your belief will continue. God will not forsake you.
On the other hand, if you never were a regenerate child of God, then you will leave.

 

[3 Resurrections]

Some of what I am going to write may not sit well with some of you, but please understand that I'm not here to cause offense.

I’m going through the roughest time of my life. My wife and I are divorcing. I’m planning on moving out of my state when the whole legal process is over, and I’m basically going to be starting over.

Dear sir, I will certainly be praying for you as you pass through this dark time of your life. A son of mine is likewise passing through the same thing at the moment, and my heart bleeds for him and his young children. He is a believer, but that doesn't lessen the anguish for him and the kids or for us. Very tough all around. But our Christ was also a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. Grief requires time to walk through it. If you are finding it difficult to even pray, then at least write it down - and burn it afterward if you need to. God will still be there when you are ready.

 

[Arial]

Some of what I am going to write may not sit well with some of you, but please understand that I'm not here to cause offense.

I’m going through the roughest time of my life. My wife and I are divorcing. I’m planning on moving out of my state when the whole legal process is over, and I’m basically going to be starting over.

I had been absent from my local church for a while because I couldn’t mentally or emotionally commit to attending on a regular basis while everything was going on. This Sunday, I decided to go alone without her, and it was an emotionally draining experience. The only thing I felt during the service was a sense of judgement because I failed to hold my marriage together and the vow I made before God is now broken. I felt devastated looking at the empty seat next to me. Unfortunately, I don't plan on going back. On top of that, I don't pray much anymore, and I am unable to focus when I try to read the Bible.

Recently, I started giving serious thought to whether or not I wanted to continue being a believer. The answer I came to is yes—I will continue to believe; however, it will most likely be what James calls a “dead faith" since I no longer have the strength to serve or have fellowship with others.

I don't know what all of this means for my eternal destiny, but I guess I'll find out one day.

I can truly empathize with these feelings. I will withhold the details of my experience in that same place. Having come through it and into a much better and stronger in the things of God, place, I will say this. Remember that it is God who holds on to you, not you who holds on to him. If all you can do right now is remember that, it is enough.

There are times in our lives as God's covenant children, when we are brought to lie down in green pastures, led beside still waters, where our souls are restored. And there are times when we walk through the valley of hard times and grief, where all we can do is cry, "Abba, Father". "Father, help!" He is with us in that valley, working a purpose in us, one which we may or may not ever know, and will bring us out the other side, again to rest and peace, restoring our soul, and leading us again in paths of righteousness. Trust him as best you can right now.

 

[makesends]

I can truly empathize with these feelings. I will withhold the details of my experience in that same place. Having come through it and into a much better and stronger in the things of God, place, I will say this. Remember that it is God who holds on to you, not you who holds on to him. If all you can do right now is remember that, it is enough.

There are times in our lives as God's covenant children, when we are brought to lie down in green pastures, led beside still waters, where our souls are restored. And there are times when we walk through the valley of hard times and grief, where all we can do is cry, "Abba, Father". "Father, help!" He is with us in that valley, working a purpose in us, one which we may or may not ever know, and will bring us out the other side, again to rest and peace, restoring our soul, and leading us again in paths of righteousness. Trust him as best you can right now.

Amen. "Come unto me.... and learn of me..."

 

[Regulus]

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers. I have a lot to think about.

 

[prism]

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers. I have a lot to think about.

Praying:
Deuteronomy 31:6 KJV
Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them (spiritual enemies): for the LORD thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

 

[Tambora]

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers. I have a lot to think about.

We will be here for you.
Working through sadness ain't easy for anyone.

 

[makesends]

Thanks everyone for your thoughts and prayers. I have a lot to think about.

Hope to see you here again.